Naked and bathing the semen away. Uncomfortable
and left behind.

The saliva shines a silver as we make love.

As I lose myself in pretending.

Pulse catches in continuous beating. (Sore hands
shake and bare feet feel frozen.)

The beauty in the way the blue screen captures
everything.

The way it keeps on with falling out of windows
and into walls.

Triangles growing out your wrists to keep you
safe. I hope they keep you safe.

These nightmares coming to life, the stains that
never wash out.

(The feeling of your body with his and the sound
of you sighing and sharing our moments without
me.)

Every night I dreamt through your every
encounter. And that morning I never fell asleep.

I was up awake with a sore mouth from kissing
myself, giving up days to get rid of loneliness.

Cold wind and wet rain are the only ones keeping
touch.

You knew better than anyone that I fall harder
than anyone.