I swear to tell the truth and nothin' but the truth

so help me God

I just felt like telling the story of my life

felt like maybe somebody could be inspired

we all feel pain we all go through things

but it's time to overcome all that

if your plane crashed in the water and everybody died

would you drown on purpose or try to survive

I was born handicapped my arm wouldn't move

they called me a cripple pops caught an attitude

beat my moms, smoked la, drove trucks

my moms had a miscarraige he didn't give a fuck

he sniffed some coke come home

beat up on my moms cause she's talkin' on the phone

come on

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all I ever wanted

all I ever needed

was a father

that's all

all I ever wanted

all I ever needed

was a father

moms got tired of the beatings said yo we got to go

packed up her bags we bounced out the do'

she said I ain't takin' these whippin's no mo'

I wanna live to see my little Todd grow

I remember tear drops on my pops face

lookin' down at me standing on the staircase

handsome brova with a smooth goatee

makes me wonder why he act so ugly

you feeling me

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my pops got drunk when me and my moms bounced

swigged some Jack Dans' and sniffed up an ounce

grabbed the shotty left Long Isle for Queens

possesed by a demon a devil it seemed

I was too young to understand the risk

when your moms come home off the midnight shift

she turned around heard the shotgun click

my pops said you think that you could leave me

he blasted my moms in the back

she fell down screamin' I can't forget that

my grandfather tried to close the do'

he got shot ten times in the stomach yo

for real

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my head was spinning I had never seen blood

four years old this don't feel like love

any way pops dissapeared

grandpops and moms healed up over the years

this therapist got up in her head

led her to beleive without him she'd be dead

you know they fell in love with one another

everything seemed right that's word to mother

until I started gettin' beatings everyday

sometimes for going outside to play

late at night on my knees I pray

young child wishing the pain would go away

dad where was you when he made me strip

beat with belts like a slave with a whip

kicked me down steps outside in the snow

punched me in the chest stomped me out on the flo'

that's just the tip of the iceberg look

it's too long for a song but perfect for a book

word is bond

that's real baby

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