Have I Mentioned



You're like that cat

I almost hit with my car

That as much as I hate cats

I had to slam on the brakes

Then

Took one more look around

Realized what I'm doing just isn't right

That even if no one's lookin'

I should be a good girl anyway



I was going out

To ride my bike today

But it's a little too chilly this morning

Wouldn't you agree?

Besides

I'd just come past

About a couple doaen times

Before you'd look out and see me

And I'd break down and cry



Have I mentioned

I paint my toenails purple still

Your favorite color

Or that I tried

To dye my hair to blond

One time you'd asked me to

Or that I still smoke

Like a chimney

Though you begged me to stop

And here I am

In some strange way

Still trying to change to be your girl.



I won't change to be your girl



I'm sorry

I called your house today

I wasn't thinking when it rang 5 times

Then left a message with your mom

Though

I don't regret it

Not like the nights when we would fight

I'd go out drinking with my friends

You know they like how I dance and sing



Have I mentioned

I wear my dresses longer now

You woulda' liked that

Or that I laid off

The karaoke bars

You always hate when I perform

Or that I drink

Like a fish still

My liver thanks me

And here I am

In some strange way

Still trying to change to be your girl



I won't change to be your girl



When I'd talk about my big dreams

You'd smile condescendingly

And assure me that one day honey

I'd have to grow up, too

When I'd talk about the future

And you'd decry my age again

And you'd promise me that years of pain

Would make me bitter, too



Have I mentioned

I'm at the big kids table now

You coulda' joined me

Or that the pain

Has made me stronger

I'm really good at bouncing back

Or that Mary Jane still comes to visit

I know you hate her

And here I am

In some strange way

Still trying to change to be your girl



I won't change to be your girl



I'll never be your girl again



I'd never change to be your girl.







copyright 2002- Jennifer Rupe