It only hurts me when I'm awake

It seems to die with dreaming

And there's only so much that I can fake

When my whole life's careening down



I will not die



It only kills me 'cause I'm alive

and living this disaster

And it's all I can do now to survive

I live to beat my master down



I will not die

Down I will not die



When I'm well I long to be

Only in love with you

But I guess I'll never be whole

And you know it's true

It does not stop me that we all die

I know this trip's to slaughter

But if only I could let me cry

I feel the healing water roll down



I will not die

Down I will not die

Down I will not die