a hell of self caused pain

lewd paints harass me

no heart was ever caught and cursed

in such venial lust



decay of dreammade fear

overflows my tired heart

only disgust remained of sweetness bleeding

in caddish pain



loud rushes the sirens well

dark hales the sphynx before our guilt

our hearts trembling with filth

we cry forgive us our sins



tortured by god and crushed in my face

from our souls' darkened bliss

remained only a feeling of bashfulness

the day before in distorted glance



beating to bars of heretic songs

in despair and sadful grace

brighter the stars of forgotten hope

reflecting our godless sin



away you haunting face

with unamable fear

thrill of delight trembles the embers

of my breath



come and get me

you never succeed

choke the life out of you with pale

hands



I open it the door of life

and breathe the world again

I am

am sound and hot coloured life

still my blood flows

I am