I've tried it twice but all in vain

I've seen it come but far too late

Sometimes it's easier to swallow pain as pain

Inwards

Lifeless

A bitter soul in shades

Unbroken chains

Again and again

This fear I can not hide

Inwards

It's inside

Here I go again with blinded sight

Into my universe of time

Inner higher praise of spiritual decay

Terminal state of confusion

Yes, I know, I'm hard to penetrate

I won't complain

It's my own perception

And I need to fucking lie for one more day...