Then I looked into her young eyes

From eighty years she looks back

Into my young eyes

And she is gone

To where?

Where has her soul gone?

Body found yes

But her very mark her sign

Lost it seems to me now

Though I feel that she is here still

All around me windsouled

To love is always to live somehow

As long as our eyes are still this colourdull glass

I will not know her still

This parched scorched earth

Endless wheel of suffering

Great ocean of pain

Bloodbucket of grief

Roaring mouthgaped O

Of disappointment and despair

Will not then exist

And we shall smile

We shall smile as big

As the big crescent moon

Which lies on its arched back and dreams

Of cats and stars and snow

And as before we saw smiley shining stars

And disreaching them

Our arms would wave like a desperate windmill

Hoping hoping to welcome them home

Now we shall touch them close to our hearts

And what we are

And what we may be

Maybe

Why I have failed

And all I could have been

And am not

And all I had hoped for

And were not

And everything I hoped

And hoped and hoped and hoped for

I prayed in the morning

And I prayed in the evening

And I got not

From the rotgut god

When all the world starts to shiver

And shimmer and shake all around me

And all the worldlight was piecemeal

And peaceless

This is the atomic pain of the worlds

The molecular tears

The final crystalline structure of misery

That winds its way around the wooden snakejawed growing spine

Of the worlds

Listen: I was taken

To be betrayed whenever is hate

To be betrayed wherever is hate

As the body is abused by man

There in the Patrapass