Face black another shadow of innocence tainted

Gave back all the lights and glitter

Wrong track again and again is stings

Wish you all could feel like this

12 is for the reason of regret

9 is for the pain that I'm caused

Will strife ever cease? Someday...

Fuck this mind that is made to hate

Complete the task of humility

Restrained from who they want me to be

That's what they want me to be

That is not quite good enough for me

Fuck you and your thoughts on me

Fuck you and your thoughts of me

Fuck you how can I not be me

Fuck you I will never let you take me

I will never be that good little one

I can never see what is so good about life

I can never change just who I am,

just what it is I think I am doing

My hands fell down now I know I failed

You were not there to pick up the waste of this pathetic tale

Maybe I should just end all this right here

Would you like that?

Maybe you could cope knowing that you all have succeeded

I am staying here to betray all of you

Never failing me again

Cut a little...it bleeds slowly can you see it ooze?

I'm going to save me

My eyes turn the color jade

I look at everyone around me

I am so sick of this place

Anyone and anything makes me sick

I just want to end it all

I return to my room walls white with black shades

Oh how would red look?

The reasons are not for your ears

The feelings are not for your heart

I circle in tears wishing, hoping, dreaming

Can I find a way out besides this?

I need it

I want to be where you are

I miss you