i wish i didn't have this nervous laugh

i wish i didn't say half the stuff i say

i wish i could just learn to cover my tracks

i guess i'm not concerned about getting away



'cause every time i try to hold my tongue

it slips like a fish from a line

they say if you want to play

you should learn how to play dumb

i guess i can't bring myself to waste your time



'cause we both know what i've been doing

i've been intentionally bad at lying

you're the only boy i ever let see through me

and i hope you beleive me when i say i'm trying

and i hope i never improve my game

yeah i'd rather have these things weighing on my mind

and at the end of this tunnel of guilt and shame

there must be a light of some kind

there must be a light of some kind



i must have blown a fuse or something

cause it was so dark in my mind

she came up to me with the sweetest face

and she was holding a light of some kind

and i still think of you as my boyfriend

i don't think this is the end of the world

but i think maybe you should follow my example

and go meet yourself a really nice girl



'cause we both know. . .



in the end the world comes down to just a few people

but for you it comes down to one

but no one ever asked me if i thought i could be

everything to someone

there's a crowd of people harboured in every person

there are so many roles that we play

and you've decided to love me for eternity

i'm still deciding who i want to be today



'cause we both know. . .