The door opened, in walked my brother terrified

Teary eyed, I'm wide open only to hear our father died

It's not true, I'm hopin'

I need some air, I'm choking

Get me off this ride, it's like goin

Feeling I'm lost, I'm frozen

Suspended in mid-traumatized state

Why I'm chosen for this fate, I don't know

Head shakes back and forth, emotional, unsociable

Not speakin, remaining silent cuz I'm weak

And deep inside I freakin' want my father back, I need him

Why's God cheatin?

Taking half of two that gave me life

My mind, place, and thought

Never longer can I sleep at night

And I'm feeling like insecure, and what's my future lookin like?

I ain't dealt with death before, age eleven, I can't take no more

Hands on the floor cuz my stomach's feelin sick

And I was mad at the Lord because he took him all too quick

That day, on his way to pick me up he never made it

Blamed it all on myself before I dwell to self-hatred

On a path for destruct, many thought I wouldn't make it

I hated the way I feel but I just can't seem to shake it

Somebody take it away, this mad situation

My world is breaking and I feel about to cave in



I try to take it all in after it all settled

I couldn't begin accepting you were gone

But understood (X2)



Hey, Dad, I miss you

For everyday gone and for the rest of my life

I try to remain strong until we reunite

Live on, your memory from the seeds you planted gently

Thanks for being there for me, and all the time you spent with me

Love sent from me, If I could only have that day back

To sit down and rap, through the breeze, and have a chat

The fact still remains, still later, on the day I have to meet our maker

I write my feelings on the paper for now

Along with hope course, much played

I see you as I drive by

I feel you, like your presence is there

I stop, and I stare.

I see the pictures of days we shared.

Well aware that you cared.

Making sure I was prepared for life;

The hardships, the struggle, the god ships, and the troubles that come with it

Always kept my lifted, I gripped it to my heart, everything you taught me

My dad, my hero... you have my love for all eternity



I try to take it all in after it all settled

I couldn't begin accepting you were gone

But understood (X5)