i never thought this could be me

i guess you never do

until it's happening to you

like all the fun turns into shame

and all the 'could have beens'

rearrange

so little time so many crimes

guilt like a chain chokes my will away

redemption never seemed so cruel

and all my gods never seemed so weak



wake up engage

now derailed and enraged

it used to be so easy

get up i'm game

now sick and i'm tame

counting cost with loss



where is the hope they gave

don't think i can't hear you laugh

i used to be a lot like you but now i'm only me

i used to be a lot like you but now i'm only me

i'm only me



drinks to pills to shots

fun turns into shock

a habit and a pawn

for every hand goes round

the pain gets so damned loud

the hammer hits and i'm down, and i'm down, and i'm down, and i'm down



trust no one

hey why should i

they give me the poison dressed like life

cheated smacked up and diseased

cry to sleep and fight to eat

used to be a pro at this

now i've broken my own wrist

rotten teeth and life unsung

you'll forget me when i'm gone