when we were lost,

we were saving every texture

taking breaths in every silk ray

candlelit nights blurred by dreams i never knew

and the land you crossed in my mind

pointed fingers straight through the back

of my heart

my hardened shell was your only defense,

you swore

"i looked up once and i was enveloped..."

these paths i can't even spell

and i know i used to feel you,

and i know the things you used to say

and all the time

we'd spent

pennies in pools as deep as oceans

and hands in hands as warm as now.

and it seems so unreal,

you're not in these memories.