it builds up inside

intensifies

ready to explode

contained within never not i

anxiety

i shiver failing to hold it back

reality

drifting away

from conscience on my back

it's payback time

i'm punished for my life

hurt by the stone

cast by all i've ever met

why must this happen all at once?

suffocate my mind

why must this happen all at once?

i feel, i feel i wanna

die, go away

i can't handle it

surrendering inside

peel away my skin

ready to say goodbye

pushing me

pounding at me all at once

feels as if...if i had a gun

i was told once before

i know i'd reach the end of forever

i know i got what's coming to me

deserve the hell i'm in

why must this happen all at once

i feel...i feel i wanna die