In the hollow of your arms

Snuggled up safe and warm

You used to tell me tales of unicorns and kings



But how could I comprehend

All the things you told me then

Of your maddness and your struggling



My mind would swim in fantasies

Like a piece of driftwood on the sea

I had no touchstone for reality

You were my reality



Like a dark and unlit room

Or the far side of the moon

Your insanity spoke emptiness and fear



No matter how I tried

How I questioned and I pried

I just could not penetrate that thin veneer



And I know you tried to comfort me

To soothe and reassure me

But then your strength would always fail

And in it's place a silken veil



Like a dried and wrinkled prune

A deflated toy balloon

I came home and found you strewn across the floor



And as they lay you on your bed

I heard you say "If I am dead,

How come it just keeps on hurtin' more and more"



And you left me in the early spring

All they said was "Mommy's resting"

And how was I to know so young

It wasn't something I had done



So please try and understand

I will love you as I can

I do not blame you, you're not guilty



But still theres no way to describe

The relief I finally found

Upon learning it was you

And not me



That was crazy