how many times I felt like this

how many times wasting the fire within



i watch you from the distance

remembering i had you,

here between my arms



you leaved me when you knew

i wasn't what you hoped

it's not nice to realize

of being socially challenged



i know I'm not funny

not like the men you go out with



but remember I was there

when you had nothing

nothing but a cold empty heart



and how we spent so many nights

dancing never let me down again and

a lover spurned

you little stupid bitch



i hear you laughing

and it's like laughing about me again

but you can feel lucky

if i just obey the voices i hear

telling me to kill you



i'm here feeling the fire within again



by the river we shared

everything remains the same

your stupid smile of bitch

echoes forever



but now it's only the bridge,

the river and me

i'll jump into oblivion

good night