Dear matthew I like you a lot I realize you're in a relationship with someone right now and

I respect that I would like you to know that if you're ever single in the future

And you want to come visit me in california I would be open to spending time with you

And finding out how old you were when you wrote your first song



Dear eric I liked you too much I used to be attracted to boys who would lie to me

And think solely about themselves and you were plenty self-destructive for my taste at the time

I used to say the more tragic the better the truth is whenever I think of the early 90's your face

Comes up with a vengeance like it was yesterday



Dear terry I love you muchly you've been nothing but open hearted and emotionally available

And supportive and nurturing and consummately there for me I kept drawing you in

And pushing you away I remember how beautiful it was to fall asleep on your couch

And cry in front of you for the first time you were the best platform from which to jump

Beyond myself what was wrong with me



Dear marc you rocked my world you had a charismatic way about you with the women

And you got me seriously thinking about spirituality and you wouldn't let me get away

With kicking my own ass but I could never really feel relaxed and looked out for around

You though and that stopped us from going any further than we did and it's kinda too bad

Because we could've had much more fun



Dear terrance you were an adventure besides being a few decades older than I was

You used to write the most poetic loveletters and I still have them you were in

And out of several marriages and you liked them young and naive so you could have

The power and the dramas to feel fear I wonder what your wife thought of all of this



Dear christian