now you don't see me

I have closed my eyes

but now I am lost

you closed your eyes



despair dancing in my heart

as I ran to escape my tears



I, I am alone, there is no God where I am



rise, the memories

now, I'm far away

feel, it's all so useless

I, I blame life for all this



I'm jealous, coming to grief

sometimes I'm not afraid

sometimes I wish you my pain

and sometimes I hate



and if I was a cat

I would stare all the time

with depth in my eyes

right into your stars



time flashes in your eyes

something bigger than life