you should have showed me

a long long time ago

instead you kept it in your heart

for those rough ass last sad ass days

meaning so much to a boy

oh he enjoyed those weekends

never lost his faith in you

and never put you down

fuck no I feel shame

as they?e stitching up your stomach

will I ever gain the power

or the sperm to be a better man

plastic forehead melts makeup on my lips

oh daddy

now look at me I'm all grown up

I? so scared to be alone

crazy people point their fingers

ha ha

I hate the smell of funeral homes

I'm doing alright for being a bastard

it's ok he'll be back

she said so sweetly and so mad

he's going out to catch a disease

grandma grips her rosary beads

surprises me with hot fudge and

some late night channel 9

The Wizard of Oz was on she helps to keep me occupied

I feel shame

as they?e stitching up your stomach

will I ever gain the power or the sperm to be a better man

plastic forehead melts makeup on my lips

oh daddy

ah you left me so fragile

hollow and so yellow

dig you up and say

I'm a man today

sometimes I've forgotten

how you smiled while rotting in your deathbed

why daddy let me cry

why

you woke me up

you woke me up........5:30