oh my god! my god this can't be happening! god tell me, tell me this isn't real! i can't believe all that i have foreseen is finally happening. i cannot for a single second stand the way i feel. i always knew. i always saw it coming. enveloped now, encased by my worst fear. i've never felt the nausea of longing to feel nothing, i never wanted to cease to exist, just disappear. fear memories are all that lie ahead. never have i felt so lost. memories dull my senses. fear tragedy is all that lies ahead. never have i felt so dead. once felt so warm, no i'm fucking freezing. i am the once embraced abandoned one. i raised my eyes up to the light in hopes of finding healing; no relief was mine, i was burnt, by the sun