You won't find me condescending at your closed door

You won't hear how I feel.

Say you've been there before

The holiday's the hardest time to fill in all the blanks

And you don't need anyone to show you those mistakes

Wrap yourself up in only math of our world

Fill up the holes in your full heart with details

For all the riddles solved and every puzzle you complete

Can't seem to find the pieces to the heart that beats

You'll master every task but always by the book

Then log it in your past with risk that you once took

They left you then, they'll hurt you now

Can't get too close to you or you will cut them down

And any fool can play

I'll raise the stakes with another turn

We risk, we roll and we burn

At arms length you never get hit

There's too much to gamble when you let someone in

My true friend I'm spewing

And only one more positive

I just might spill some notable insight

I didn't think before I purged

So here I am attempting to unlock your closed door

I wouldn't break it down 'cause you'd be gone for sure

You might say something nice of me and send it in a card

Or under whiskey breath slur kind words at the bar

And you're sinking me

While you stay afloat in the tank you built

We drop, we'll never learn