i'm scared of swimming in the sea

dark shapes moving under me

every fear i swallow makes me small

inconsequential things occur

alarms triggered

memories stir

it's not the way it has to be



i'm afraid of what i do not know

i hate being undermined

i'm afraid i can be devil man

and i'm scared to be divine

don't mess with me my fuse is short

beneath this skin these fragments caught



when i allow it to be

there's no control over me

i have my fears

but they do not have me



walking through the undergrowth, to the house in the woods

the deeper i go, the darker it gets

i peer through the window

knock at the door

and the monster i was

afraid of

lies curled up on the floor

is curled up on the floor just like a baby boy



i cry until i laugh



i'm afraid of being mothered

with my balls shut in the pen

i'm afraid of loving women

and i'm scared of loving men

flashbacks coming every night

don't tell me everything's alright



walking through the undergrowth, to the house in the woods

the deeper i go, the darker it gets

i peer through the window

knock at the door

and the monster i was

afraid of

lies curled up on the floor

is curled up on the floor just like a baby boy



i cry until i laugh