this morning

you got up early

I was still sleeping

I was exhausted

I was having dreams

that had blood in them

that had weapons in them

wet dreams

wet dreams

I woke up crying

you were gone

last night you kissed me

I pushed you away

my push made you want

to

kiss me again - no

I pushed you away

you kissed me and kissed

me

get off me

get off me

last night I got up

didn't wash

I was wet with acrid

sweat

sweat that doesn't

smell like sex

smells like anger and fear

smells like anger and fear

my dear!

smells like anger and fear

my dear!