I'm cold, I'm ugly

I'm always confused by everything

I can stare into a thousand eyes

But every smile hides a bold-faced lie



It itches, it seethes, it festers and breathes

My heros are dead, they died in my head

Thin out the herd, squeeze out the pain

Something inside me has opened up again



Thoughts of me exemplified

All the little flaws I have denied

Forget today, forget whatever happened

Everyday I see a little more of overall deficiencies

I'm nothing short of being one complete catastrophe



What the hell - did I - do to deserve - all of this?



I save all the bullets from ignorant minds

Your insults get stuck in my teeth as they grind

Way past good taste, on our way to bad omens

I decrease, while my symptoms increase



God what the fuck is wrong

You act like you knew it all along

Your timing sucks, your silence is a blessing



All I ever wanted out of you was

something you could never be

Now take a real good look at

What you've fucking done to me



Gimme any reason why I'd need you, boy

Gimme any reason not to fuck you up

Gimme any reason why I'd need you, bitch

Gimme any reason not to fuck you up



I see you in me



I keep my scars from prying eyes

Incapable of ever knowing why

Somebody breathe, I've got to have an answer



Why am I so fascinated by

bigger pictures, better things

But I don't care what you think

You'll never understand me