I choke on my bitterness

Because some things are better left unsaid



Hesitant is my instinctive venom

Since I've stepped out of this light



I said I'm sorry

The truth is I never was

Begging to be indifferent

I'll take you down with me



You're going down

I'll take you down



Falling

Scratching, tearing



Ripping, falling, melting

Scratching, tearing, bleeding, feeding



I said I'm sorry

The truth is I never am

Begging for indifference

I'll drag you down with me



You're going down

I'll drag you down



A toxified embrace holds me up

As my suicide increases

And my life skids out of control

Shouting back in my face



As I lose control of my hands and mind

As I reach for my peace



I claw at my eyes

Insensitivity looking away

Just like a raped mother to her child

I hate you just the same

I hate you



And when patience wears thin

Intentions watch hungrily transparent

Anxious to feast on your devotion

Anticipating that quenchless thirst