how much do I need to find happiness

will i find it in this or will i die trying

i tried

i lied

i tried

i died

It only goes so far

only lasts so long

how much do i need to be nothing

drown my thoughts

drown in my material needs

drown in my ego

drown in me

drown in my love

drown in my hate

in my emotions

forget me

forget it all

drown in me

forget it all

drown in me

forget me

forget it all

drown in me

how can it be.