to completely dissolve,

what method is used

i cannot sleep,

my hands are bruised

there's a hole in the wall,

torn up anew

one dead eye,

the colour of you



to vanish for life

and promise to stay

away from the knowing,

bird in a cage

i'd give so much

for the courage to go

if i ask for your help,

then you will know



so help me disappear

or to believe in a change

no way out of here

that i can see

or the nightmares that burn

into my head at night

make them disappear

so i can breathe



looked out the window twice,

just to be sure

that noone was standing

outside the door

but it's just as calm

as it was before

they're all gone now,

not there anymore



isolated myself

for the sake of freedom

i clenched my fist

for the sake of kindness

i read a book full of strange

words

loneliness is a disease