Push me out from the darkness

To a sky that's colored blue

Somewhere someone's finding happiness

While I'm still here so hung up on you

Nothing is real

And I want you to know

That I'm not alright

When you tear open my chest

I'll try not to flinch

Won't make promises

You taught me that I'm still losing what's left
out

My self esteem

And I'm still watching the slow fading of all my
daydreams

The hardest things to say are the words that mean
the most

So I'll bite my tongue til it bleeds and I doubt
you'll even know

The easiest thing to fake's a feeling to fool
someone else

And I've been tricked for so long by you

that I spent these last few months in my own hell

A failed apology

A day too late but now I see

That all you really want's to see me dangle neck
first from a tree

But what would you need me for

You've got friends galore

And all you'll ever be to me's a stupid lying
excuse for a person

I could call

But I know that you won't be there to pick up the
phone

You don't have time for me

I could call but I know you won't get the phone

Don't have time for me

I hate myself

For loving you like this

I hate myself for hating myself

Just enough to love you

Just enough to love you