Lost Myself In Search of You

written and performed by Matt Nathanson

from the album "Please"



I was holding you so tight and you were holding me

So wrapped up in the moment I was feeling such security

and the first few weeks were just like heaven

but I never really seemed to get that high

so now I just sit here laughing at the time that passed me by

It's times like these when I feel I'm on my knees beggin

Please don't go!

And as you slipped away

I couldn't admit that we were through

and as you slipped away

I found I lost myself in search of you



I was holding you so tight and you were holding him

but you left the door so wide open that I was sure you'd come back in

And now the only time I can hold you is in my mind

but that doesn't seem to fill me up inside

So yes I felt lonely and yes I felt a need

and you seemed to feel it necessary to make me see

that I was wrong and you were right and that all my attempts

were in vain but I was pretty sure you'd turn around and want me back again

And as you slipped away

I couldn't admit that we were through

And as you slipped away

I found I lost myself in search of you



I was holding you so tight when you needed help

I guess insecurities catch up to you when your lying to yourself

But I wasn't lying when I told you all that you could be

but it was no use

You never really listened to me

I was holding you so tight but now I've let you go





(note: these lyrics were taken from the album sleeve but they tend to stay pret

ty accurate in Nathanson's case.)

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