[ VERSE 1: Scarface ]

Is this how you made it, or is this sickness out of control

Is the beginning of the end right now? Let me know

Do the saved souls travel the road of the souls lost?

How come the dead can't talk?

Through horrified eyes I can picture the other side

And though my heart shed tears outside I couldn't cry

Watched my homeboy die, day by day body tired

Remember, I finally accounted before he expired

They tell me there's a peaceful place, I wanna see it

They say I gotta leave it to see it, so it be it

And though I appreciate bein alive

Sometimes I wanna see how it feels to just die

Come back and tell my story to the ones who really know me

Converse with the angels and elders that went before me

And satisfy the hunger for those who wanna know

If there's life after death, and if so, where we go

I often find myself involved in deep thought

I wanna see is heavens a place like we thought

And Christian science seems to think it's just a mindstate

But before I put my trust in a man I'll just wait

Or better yet, I take the journey for myself

Put a bullet in my own head, it's my death

So when twelve o'clock jump on eve of 119

( *gunshot* ) suicide

Just as I thought, a bright light

Greeted by friends and family, so life-like

Black and in between screams and then peace

Lookin in the eyes of the grieved and deceased

Father pleace, send me back, I don't wanna die

I'm not as strong as I was and I can't lie

And during all the mayhem somehow I remained calm

And I woke up singing this song



[ CHORUS ]

I been a pawn and I been a king

And I been down since the beckoning

I try to look beyond the sight of sound

And the lights come from the underground

Rarely