with no hopes

and my will to live

barely a care in this world to me

i found a way

kidnapped and confined

within a system designed

to destroy the inncocent child that i use to be

it stripped me mentally naked

embarrassing my mommas first born

did i deserve that kind of fate?

Was all that was happening to me

really written in the powerfull and allmighty book of life?

I dont think so

My tears would soak the pages that i write upon

if i couldn't close the windows to my soul

and stand strong in the midst of these storms

Maybe my story is

in some way or another fimilar with yours

is that why this aint even a song

but yet you still.. you wanna here this once more

i play this everytime i wanna reflect from

which ive come from

to help me see were it is im trying to go

and even though grandma and our sisters

left me some time ago

i still go by and sit on the front porch as if i dont even know

but im getting better

my mom

my two sisters...ebony and tanya

destiny

man i got mikey and shocker now

my homeboyz

and those that love me regardless

Diary of a sinner

another entry

i guess i'll finish this tomorrow