I was so lost in my pain. Fear was melting my brain. I was counting the days

to insanity.

I was afraid to move myself. Afraid to hurt myself. More than I had until

that day.

Everything i believed in. Everything i fought for. Was now underneath my

feet.

And my heartbeat. Was so gone. Couldn't be felt by anyone. So alone it gave

me the creeps.

My drugs got me in bed. Went up to my head. And i really don't want to

depend. So I'll stick to

My friends and my friends and my car and my friends

My friends and my cards and my car and my friends

Martini until the end

Play pool again

My friends and my friends and my car and my friends

My friends and my cards and my car and my friends

Never thought to end like this. No one told me it would be like this. I'm

amazed with myself.

And my brain and my pain and my pain and my veins. Are delivering it to my

health.

My self-confidence was broken while my trust was taken. And it left me with

an empty life.

And this knife. Rests on the middle of my bed. I think in all the things she

said. close my eyes and sleep.

All thse drugs in my head. It seems I'm already dead. And I really don't

want to depend. So I'll stick to

My friends and my friends and my car and my friends

My friends and my cards and my car and my friends

Martini until the end

Play pool again

My friends and my friends and my car and my friends

My friends and my cards and my car and my friends

Can't smoke anymore. Can't drink anymore. Still I do it, I do it again.

Lost everything I had. Far from mum far from dad. I thank God from my good,

good friends.

But where's this God that I mention? Where is He right now? As I die slowly

as I can?

All my plans. Went down the hole. My life has