1993, shortly before Thanksgivin'

I got the call she say Jamal, Derek is no longer livin

Softly she spoke

Is this a joke?

Man, you gotta be kiddin

As my question was raised this explanation was givin

A meaningless death

Made me question the meaning of life

Does my body remain at rest like when I'm sleeping at night?

Will I burn in eternal hell?

Or will I find paradise?

Be rejected or ressurected like the body of Christ

Is it like purgatory the story described by the Catholics?

Or nirvana that Buddha saw in both theory and practice

Like I studied in my college phillosophy classes

Or do my molecules and atoms travel back to the gases

I mean what I'd like to know

Is wheres my spirit go?

After the curtains close

On my final show

Is there a pain it brings?

Enjoy my favorite thing

Visit ancient kings

Hear the angel sing

Who'll answers these said the great mcs

My man Gremel's battling a debilitating disease

He said "You see a brother like me is full in the fight"

And everytime I question death my only answer in life

Nigga fight



One life

Only god can set me free

Am I living in this moment?

Am I living righteously?

It gets hard, but I know I've got to keep on

I'm tryin so hard to be strong



Paralyzed on the bathroom floor by pain

Last month I endured

But now I can't ignore

Feels like rail road spikes being stuck in my liver

And my dyin eyes cryin', body startin to shiver

Crawl upstairs from the basement callin my sister

*sniff* Dawn, help me, I ain't feelin to healthy

Stomach walls burnin

Head spinnin and turnin

Waitin for the EMS 3:10 in the mournin

Rush me to emergency screamin like a newborn

The pain's to str