Make me, make me sweat

till I'm wet, till I'm dry

but then wipe this tear from my eye

haven't felt this warm in a long time

even out in the bright sunshine

in a lifetime of springtime



I fall into your arms

with my heart pumpin' on

like a bubblin' dub treck

like a garlicy hot tongue and lip smack



I did some contemplation

before we got down to this consecration

maybe baby somethin in your kiss said

it was an impetous,

for me to re-think this.



If I love you,

then I better get tested

make sure we're protected



I walk through the park

dressed like a question mark

Hark!

I hear my memory bak

in the back of my brain,

makin' me insane ...

...like cocaine.



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But how'm I gonna live my life if I'm positive?

Is it gonna be a negative?

How'm I gonna live my life if I'm positive?

Is it gonna be a negative?

but how'm I gonna live my life If I'm positive?



It dawned on me, it seemed to me

this is unusual scenery,

this red light greenery

make me feel kinda dreamery,

thinkin'how I used to be



Arrive at the clinic

walk through the front door

take a nervous number

then I think some more

about all the time

that I neglected

makin sure that

I was protected.



They took my blood

With an anonymous number

two weeks waitin' wonderin'



I shoulda done this a long time ago

alot of excuses why I couldn't go

I know these things and these things I must know

'Cause it's better to know than to not know!



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I go home to kick it

in my apartment

I try to give myself

a risk assessment

the wait is what can really annoy ya

everyday's more paranoya



I'm readin' about how it's transmitted

some behavior I must admit it.

who I slept with, who they slept with,

who they, who they, who they slept with.



I think about life and immortality

what's the first thing I do if I'm H.I.V.

have a cry and tell my mother

get on the phone and call my past lovers

I never thought about infectin' anotha

all the times that I said "Hmm? Don't bother."



Was it really all that magic?

the times I didn't use a prophalactic



Would my whole life have to change?

or would my whole life remain the same?

sometimes it makes me wanna shout!

all these things too hard to think about

a day to laugh, a day to cry

a day to live and a day to die

'till I find out, I may wonder

but I'm not gonna live my life six feet under



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