They told me I would feel fine in a few days

So confused people told me it was the only way

Now all I feel is remorse

My heart aches when I think about my child

I can only imagine your face

I let you be torn away from me in disgrace



Now all around me is regrets

Every morning I wish I could hold you in my arms

Or see you sleep dream in peaceful calm

But all I have is loneliness

I cannot bear these thoughts oppressing me



No-one told me I would feel like this

How can I escape I'm sick with sorrow

Has a baby just been slaughtered at my decree

Does anyone else feel like me



Why do you tell me these feelings are wrong

That child was alive within me now he is gone

In a few more days will the memories leave my head

Of my child who was living who now is dead

I cannot bear these thoughts oppressing me



No-one told me I would feel like this

How can I escape I'm sick with sorrow

Has a baby just been slaughtered at my decree

Does anyone else feel like me



The nightmares still haunt me the sickness as I wake

The repulsion I'm feeling is too much to take

Visions of pain in sleepless night haziness

Taking my mind morbid in craziness

There is a reason for things I still feel

So much unanswered wounds unhealed

Many are the times words of comfort are spoken

But still no release is here within my reach



You can't hear me my child as I cry for you

You could have had love that now far too late

I can feel for you



I have no-one to blame but myself

I have no-one to take a share of the blame

their words bring no comfort to me

No this is not self pity

Until I die will I remain the same



God forgive me please forgive me

Forgive