No-one told me this was the deal

I didn’t think that anybody cared

Nobody said that if I wasn’t here your heart would break

But you can’t make me guilty

No matter how you try

I’ve felt guilty too many times

There are no more tears to cry

The fire here is smouldering

It’s nearly burnt out and cold

Like the inner reaches of my soul

It’s tired and it’s old

Unaffected by guilt and love and the sounds that make hearts break

I’ll say it once, but that is all,

I’m sorry I was late.



The hunger cannot reach me as I pile out of the door

The world is waiting for me, I need to leave

I used to hate leaving you here

My heart tugged at my soul and eyes

But now it’s not so bad.



They question my intentions, where did I go?

The old me died with the fire

Several nights ago

Not really an almighty loss, a born loser and a cheat

But people say they miss the spark

Their pleas fall on deaf ears

The spark that made me human

Ran away to better lands, a shame

I should have gone there too.

The guilt that used to kill me,

Left through the open gate

I will not cry, worry or swear,

I’ m sorry I was late.



The scene that awaited me

Was hard to bear



My soul, ripped out

Was crying, standing there

‘You let me go, I won’t come back, I’ll drag you to your grave

Your allies are deprived

Of sensitivity and warmth

That you used to save.

You’ve tarnished all you ever did

There’s no point going on.’



The words they stung at first

Because they were true

But it won’t make me change my ways

Because I was deaf to all such insults, emotions drag you to hell!



I let it go, it won’t come back, it’ll drag me to my grave

I’ll say it only once again,

I’m sorry I was late