i have memories

clouded by sorrow

of a time in life when blood ran through my veins

but these walls keep closing

suffocating

and now I'm trapped beneath the weight of my own loss

in the company...of my misery

i gasp for air, only to drown again

unending waves of memories

lifes only gift bestowed to me

...regret

every moment marks

a breaking of my heart

now i'm left alone

with this ghost that i've become

for years i've built this monument of pain

i must find a way

to never feel again

i made the mistake of wanting

something real, and i saw it die

i paid the price for thinking,

it was true when it was all a lie