He's trying hard to keep control and lead the way

He's finding all the perfect words to say to me

I'm climbing stairs with only one thing on my mind

To kick a habit of lost opportunity



It's only natural to want what doesn't come

I swiped away all of the pawns under my thumb

But like the ending of a one act play

The curtain closes and the actors run away



And I'm up against the wall

Wondering why I came at all

Yes, I'm up against the wall

Trying to disappear

oh



I look around and watch the world as it goes by

Wondering how small, how small am I

He makes a gesture to distract me from a thought

It goes against most everything that I've been taught



It's when you wake up and you can't go back to sleep

It's when you wonder 'bout the company you keep

It's when you wake up in the middle of your life

And you just can't cut it with the dull end of a knife



And I'm up against the wall

Wondering why I came at all

Yes, I'm up against the wall

Trying to disappear

oh



You know, the way you're walkin' makes you seem larger than life

You turn the key to door, you're turning me on

My mind spins high above the world

That's the way I feel



It's only natural to want what doesn't come

I swiped away all of the pawns under my thumb

But like the ending of a one act play

The curtain closes and the actors run away



And I'm up against the wall

Wondering why I came at all

Yes, I'm up against the wall

Trying to disappear

oh