im scared of swimming in the sea

dark shapes moving under me

every fear i swallow makes me small

inconsequential things occur

alarms are triggered

memories stir



its not the way it has to be



im afraid of what i do not know

i hate being undermined

im afraid i can be devil man

and im scared to be divine

dont mess with me my fuse is short

beneath this skin these fragments caught



when i allow it to be

theres no control over me

i have my fears

but they do not have me



walking through the undergrowth, to the house in the woods

the deeper I go, the darker it gets

i peer through the window

knock at the door

and the monster i was

so afraid of

lies curled up on the floor

is curled up on the floor just like a baby boy



i cry until i laugh



im afraid of being mothered

with my balls shut in the pen

im afraid of loving women

and im scared of loving men

flashbacks coming in every night

dont tell me everythings alright



when I allow it to be

it has no control over me

i own my fear

so it doesnt own me



walking through the undergrowth, to the house in the woods

the deeper i go, the darker it gets

i peer through the window

knock at the door

and the monster i was

so afraid of

lies curled up on the floor

is curled up on the floor just like a baby boy



i cry until i laugh