I've waited long enough and I've been putting it all off

It's time I got myself going again

I've made enough excuses to last 'til the end of time

I've got to move forward with my plans

I tell myself that I am not cut out for this

I don't like anything that's happening now

But when I think of losing everything I've done so far

I know I've got to make it work somehow

What good is a friend if you can't look him in the eye?

What good is honesty if it feels like a lie?

What good is a dream if you never even try?

I thought that I was free and that I left that guy behind

I wanted to believe that someday I'd reach the sky

And if I don't press on then I'll watch the new me die

And the sadder self survive

This isn't as easy as they make it look on TV

I'd never have guessed it was so hard

And maybe you can hear it in the strain of my voice

The perils of it caught me off guard

But when you know that burning deep inside of you

Is not something so easily ignored

You get back on that horse no matter how many times you fall

'Cause it's better than everything you've done before

My life is chronicled in lapses of writer's block

Opening a window to let my feelings be mocked

You ask me why I put myself through this, to you I say

If you've ever chased a dream you know I can have it no other way

This is me today